Many are amazed and encouraged by my “strength.” I must admit, it’s not easy. It’s not easy, at all! I want to share with you what makes me “strong.”
I know that I am not alone. I have an amazing support system with my family, friends, and community. It is beyond what I ever could have imagined, to see the support we are receiving. Ultimately, even if I didn’t have all of that, I know I am not alone because I have God. Without a doubt, I know that He loves me and He loves our girl more than I ever could. (yes, at times it’s hard to believe, but He does!)
I have a strong and encouraging husband. A man whose faith is stronger than my own, who rests all of his cares and worries on the Lord. He leads our family in the direction we need to be. He allows me to be sad, angry, irritated, annoying, and goofy without judgement (at least most of the time! lol) He loves our girls and I no matter what!
I grieve when I need to. I have cried uncontrollably at times. Watching our once very active daughter slowly deteriorate is DEVASTATING! She is constantly losing weight and strength. She struggles to walk up a single step from the playroom to the hall. All of the times I have seen her lay helplessly in her own vomit, not knowing what to do. The many bathroom accidents she has had because she can’t get there fast enough and wants to do it on her own. It’s one of the hardest things I have ever had to see. It breaks my heart every time!
I have yelled “WHY?!!” Why Charlotte?! Why us?!! It boils down to how? HOW are we going to make the best of this atrocious situation? How can we show people what we have, the peace that is given to us with our faith in the Lord? Because even with all of the possibilities of our outcome, there is still a peace in me. It’s quite unreal. I intentionally live each day as they come. There have been a couple of times where satan has gotten the best of me and has made me think of the worst that may come. I luckily have a Light to look to. I know that NO MATTER WHAT the outcome, whether Charlotte remains here with us or she goes Home, she will be a happy girl and will be loved unconditionally.
KNOWING that God is a miraculous God. He has healed many and brought people back from the dead. He can do ANYTHING! And I know if it is His will, Charlotte will grow old to share her testimony of her own miracle! It gives me chills just thinking about it!
While many are encouraged by me, know that I am encouraged by you! The way people have stepped up, from family, to close friends, to acquaintances, to complete strangers! It is definitely a nice thing to see and feel amidst all the bad that is going on in the world today. Your words of support and kindness often help me get through my day. The prayers are something we could never have too much of so please don’t ever stop! The amount of people, literally ALL OVER the world praying, is something that only a MIGHTY God could do!
All in all, without Jesus, I would be lost, I wouldn’t be able to keep it together. He is my Rock, my Protector, my Strength. I know that even in the darkest times, he will never leave my side!
Psalm 40
Jacqueline, thank you so much for sharing. Praying for you, Tyler and Charlotte throughout each day.
Thank you Tami!
My husband Brent and I are praying and believing for a miracle.
Thank you Sally! That means a lot!!
Thank you Sally!
You and your family are a true inspirations. You make me want to be a better mother, wife, friend and most importantly a woman of God! Continued prayers for all🙏
Thank you, what a great compliment!
Jacqueline –
I am one of those strangers you refer too. Only knowing you through my daughter Stacey that went to school with Tyler. Your words are truly an inspiration and brought tears to my eyes. Please know I pray for your sweet little Charlotte everyday that God will heal her so she can go back to being a healthy little 3 year old and that your family can once again relax.
Thank you so much
What a testimony you and Tyler are to this world. You continue to radiate God’s love so brightly. We will continue to pray and pass on the request to as many as we can. Thanks for sharing in this way.
Thank you for all of your prayers and thoughtfulness!
You are, without doubt, the strongest young woman I have come to know through your postings. I know the York family but have not had the pleasure to meet you, however, I feel I know you in so many ways. You may not know this yet, Jacqueline, but you will be the strength in many others…you will help so many other mothers/parents who will endure what you are now enduring and you will be their salvation. They will praise & thank the Lord that he has sent someone to help them through their difficult time when they knew they could not go on. You are an angel, you just don’t know that yet. God Bless All Of You…AOYS…Angels On Your Shoulders
Thank you so much Lynne! Such a huge compliment!
What a beautiful testimony Jaci. Know that Charlotte and your sweet family are prayed over everyday at the Norton home💖
Thank you!
Your comment shows us the weight of your cross. Jesus knows tour agony and He is baring all of you up during this trial. Please be assured of our constant prayers for you all.
God Love you.
We thank you for your prayers and love you too!
We went to high school together and I saw your post through my sister, Jessica Breedyk. I now live in Huntsville Texas and work for a pediatric specialty dentist, she is a Christian lady as is our office. Every morning before we treat children we start our day with a prayer and wanted you to know that you and your sweet family are in included in our prayers. All is possible through the lord.
Thank you for your prayers Raney!
Jacqueline,
My sister, Lynne, told me about your daughter and has asked me to pray for her and her family. She sent me your blog… STRENGTH. It brought up many memories of past past trials and struggles in my life and how JESUS was and is my constant strength.
You are holding on to an unwavering ANCHOR. I will continue to lift up Charlotte, you and Tyler in prayer. I pray that God continues to comfort, strengthen and lead y’all in this difficult time. I pray for healing for Charlotte- Jesus’ supernatural touch on her life. Here are some of Jesus’ title and promises I will be praying over you and your family. Blessings!
Lisa Pellegrin
JESUS IS…
Jesus is our HOPE- Romans 15:13
Jesus is the CARRIER OF OUR BURDENS- Matthew 11:28-30
Jesus is THE PROMISE OF PEACE- 2 Thessalonians 3:16
Jesus is THE GREAT PHYSICIAN – Matthew 14:14
Jesus is FAITHFUL TO ANSWER OUR PRAYERS- Mark 11:24
Jesus is THE DAWN – Isaiah 42:16
Jesus is OUR COMFORT – Psalm 119:76
Thank you for your prayers! We hope to see you next time you’re in town! Thank you for the sweet cards and Chars gift!
Thank you so much! For your words and prayers!